Amilli-lani

damn, its been over a year since ive been on my tumblr. so much has happened. so much as changed for the better AND best believe the worst. Sometimes it feels like things are just getting worse and worse. Like there’s just no point. I know i’m not alone cause i am surrounded by people who love me and who i also love, but why does it feel like i am? Getting in fights with my parents constantly, drama, boy problems. what is all this fighting and stressing gonna do for me besides hurt and ware me out? When am i gonna have time to just worry about myself and do what I want for a change without having to worry about who i hurt or what he’ll think? The question is am i capable of that.. Words can not explain what i’m going through or feeling. no one is ever gonna know what i constantly go through at home or in life. that’s just that. it feels like EVERY time i try to open up and finally do open up with someone i think is special and think wont hurt me ends up doing the exact opposite to me. for right now imma just see what God’s plans are for me and follow him. nuff said.